The Other Side of Me

The name isn't important--
Tell me I can't,
I'll show you I can..
Nothing is holding me back anymore.
I don't fit in.
In fact, I was born to stand out.
I was made to be heard,
& I'll be something someday.
I laugh too loud,
& drive way too fast.
I drink. I smoke. I live.
I dance on table tops,
& sing off key.
No one knows me,
& that's the only way I'll ever have it <3
Oh and by the way, 5T4S. =]

Fuck you. You are a child. You sit there and judge me while you still live at home, have no job, have nothing. You enlisted, great. You’re putting it off. What are you afraid of? GROW UP. Stop telling me life is all dandelions and butterflies when you are still a child. Show me you’re an adult and I will treat you like one.  

Fuck you. You think everything is okay? It’s not. Leave me alone. I hate you. I left my home, my friends, my family… mostly because of YOU. You did the worst thing a man could do to a woman and now you want to text me saying that you wish we were single so you and I could have sex? No. You can’t tell a girl you raped that you want to have sex with her. No. Go die. 

Fuck you. You had to know one of these were going to be about you. Thanks for deciding that our friendship obviously meant nothing because now I am a stranger. Why are you so fake? Why did you be my best friend and open up to you if you were just going to do this? I have a boyfriend. I happen to love him. I’m not sorry. He and I have out ups and downs, he isn’t perfect and neither am I. Things are going to either work out or they won’t and frankly, who I date should not be a concern of yours and you should be able to accept me for WHO I AM. 

Fuck you. All I wanted was your undivided attention. I would do things for you that you would never do for me. I’m sorry I can be flaky and I change plans like it’s my job, but I miss you and I want to spend time with you. I want to be able to talk to you without a cell phone in your hand. I want time with you, not you and the internet or you and facebook. I shouldn’t even have to feel this way, but when I talk about this it makes me feel so needy and overbearing. I just want to be in a relationship with the boy I fell in love with.

Last, but certainly not least…
Fuck you. That is all I have to say to you. 

~Some of you will read this and be able to pick out which one is for you. Some of you won’t know these even exist. Most of you don’t even deserve this. But you know what, I am tired of letting all of you say and do whatever you want and I have to roll with it. This is my turn. I left a few people out but I’m not going to sit here all night and write about things that just make me angry. This is me, letting it all go. Releasing the anger. Have a wonderful evening. 

4 months ago